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Coming Out…

I once read a book that I realize now was about depression, but as a young teen reading it, I knew only that the author had described the world in which I lived with eerie intimacy, and this book has haunted me ever since, though the title eludes me….The premise, as I remember it, was…

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Fruitcake

Will I EVER be divorced from this Machiavellian Lunatic!??? He is, once again, contesting his legal responsibility to pay my monthly bills. Yes, almost two years after I filed for escape…ahem, divorce….we still do not even have temporary spousal support settled, let alone the final settlement. Does anyone have any idea why he would believe,…

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Eulogy

Dear DickHead, I have to thank you for killing her, the woman you married, the mother of your children. She was a beautiful, talented woman who knew only how to care for others. She had no idea how to stand up for or by herself, so when you burned her world down and bludgeoned her…

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What is a child’s “currency?”

When I was homeschooling my daughters (in a previous life), I was constantly encouraged to write a book on my parenting philosophy because my children were , in addition to being extraordinarily gifted, the happiest, kindest, most fun and yet self controlled children they had ever known, equally capable of playing with  friends for hours…

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Lucky Manafort

Lucky Manafort’s ass was saved by a plea deal. DH won’t have any plea deal to accept, and I almost feel sorry for him cuz this is pretty much how he’s gonna look when i take him to court.  Poor guy is either getting the worst legal advice in the universe or he’s as delusional…

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DH’s lawyer reminds me of the oatmeal guy

…you know the one: big belly, full head and face of soft grey hair, but apparently not a whole lot going on upstairs…   I mean, if you’re living on fucking oatmeal, which you’re telling us is the answer to all our health woes, why the hell do you look like Santa after too many…

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I’m out! (For now)

This topic is too fresh and painful for me to write about clearly, but it’s a journal entry that I believe will be helpful to others navigating their own pain, so I’m posting it with apologies for poor organization of my thoughts. Comments are encouraged. Wednesday August 8. 11:00 PM It’s been a year, since…

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Morning pep talk

Wednesday August 8, 8:30 AM   Me: Oh wow! I slept in! That’s great!…My body doesn’t hurt too much, I wonder if I can get back to barre today…it looks like a beautiful day outside. PTSD: Eyes open…Fuck…what day is it? Wednesday…Ok, any appointments today? No, thank God, I’m not ready to leave my apartment. Me:…

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CHOOSE, DO, BELIEVE

One of, if not THE most important of my goals, is to join with and contribute to the growing online community of Mental Health sufferers who have, in an effort to combat the lack of real help most of us are receiving from the psychiatric community, begun doing their own research and sharing it with others….

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The Witch Hunt

Depressive or shy?  Bubbly personality or Hypomania? Seasonal Affective Disorder or Bipolar? Introspective or antisocial… how the psychiatric community is failing us   Find Joy in the beauty around you,they say, in the rising of the sun, the rustle of the leaves, the cacophony of birdsong that accompanies the first rays of light…In your family,…

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Can we please just rip it off already?

I am not “excited” about the realization that I suffer with PTSD for any reason other than it explains every single peculiar thing about me that I have questioned my entire life. I do not relish the fact that it still frequently controls me. However, if I hope to be free of it (which I…

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The nightmare is real

Living with PTSD is like every now and then you randomly find yourself locked in a cage where you can see and hear everyone around you but you can’t feel them, and they keep yelling at you to just get out. But you can’t get out. You’re trapped by an invisible wall that no one…

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Parts Unknown

I just want to get away from everything for a long, long time.  that’s what suicide is: a soul in dire need of escape.  But quite honestly I have no desire to die now that I am not trapped in a hell of my own making.  What I want most is to travel, to spend…

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A Day in the Life of PTSD

I strongly encourage everyone to journal and I'm posting this mess of thoughts to demonstrate why daily writing is such an important tool in managing PTSD. The essence of this journal entry is that I got triggered by something inconsequential, and through writing about my reaction over the course of the day was ultimately able...
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Learning to Live in the Moment

As I was perusing some of my past journal entries this morning I came across a few thoughts I needed to revisit myself!  So I’ve chosen to share something I wrote on a really good day about a month ago, with the hope that it also resonates with some of you... Have you ever tried...
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Facing The Enemy

So now that I have officially embarked on this next phase of my life, put my old life behind me and wrapped up most of the loose ends, what is left is the hardest part: facing the enemy within. I have rid my life of the narcissists telling me I am crazy and delusional. What...
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There is LIFE after divorce!

Well friends, It’s been one year since I embarked on the first leg of this journey I am calling Georgia Leigh 2.0.  One year since I left almost everything behind and moved to LA with only my fourteen year old daughter and a few bags of clothes.  One year since I finally said “NO!” to living...
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Fuckboy Addiction

So by now you should understand that a FuckHead is a girl who has a bad case of Fuckboy Addiction.  And before you get  your knickers in a knot, let's have a look at this, evolutionarily.... Who is getting what they want?  Are YOU?...Or are the Fuckboys?... 'nuf said.  Darwin's idea was that we evolve...
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We like to do it in the Kitchen

Why is it considered so romantic to go out to a restaurant, sit in public across the table from each other and eat food someone else has cooked while a few dozen strangers keep a close eye on you?  Surely this must be a contributing factor to the dismal state of “relationships” in our culture,…

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Enjoy the Journey

I journal every single day (it clears my mind, sorts my thoughts, and saves my darling Bone from drowning in a pool of word vomit every night), and will be putting random excerpts from my journal in the blog.   These are mostly unedited ramblings from my heart – comments welcome but please no judgement. Wednesday…

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🚫EnergyVampires

There is so much talk about “boundaries,” from bratty teenagers asserting Power to parents, to abused wives saying “No!” But what really happens when you enforce those boundaries, not just in how people treat you, but in giving them access to you in the first place? When thoughts of a toxic person enter your mind,…